Optimism is a funny thing...

I noticed that recently my posts have been, for the most part, pretty pessimistic. I've always fancied myself a fairly optimistic person, so this recent negative trend just needs to stop. But (like my title suggests) optimism is a funny thing.

I've always found that the best ways for me to stay optimistic and positive is to have goals and plans to look forward to. This logic has always helped me in school, so naturally I carried that way of thinking to my post school/working life. The problem I have faced, is that after a certain amount of hoping, planning and wishing my self motivation runs out and I am left with dissapointment and pessimism which prevent me from getting "back on the horse" so to speak.

As an adult I can't expect people to hold my hand and tell me how wonderful I am... I have to be MY OWN motivator. More difficult than it sounds.

But not impossible. I need to take some drastic measures and try to look at my life and my goals in different ways than I have in the past. The future is not necessarily linear, and treating it like that could possibly be contributing to my dissapointment. I feel like I need to treat my future like a pyrimid... or better yet, a video game. I am being presented with different levels and challenges of which I have to defeat to move on to the next level. I won't know if the next level is more fun or more challenging, but the ultimate goal remains the same.

Which is why, no matter what tomorrow or next week holds, I need to approach it with an equal amount of energy, concentration and dedication (on the fun tasks as well as the.... not so fun). Hopefully, if I do my best, perform to my highest capability and never stop looking for new ways to solve problems, I will eventually get to where I want to be.

GAME ON!